Adventures in Dating

The dating game is new to me. I married the first boy I kissed let alone dated, so I would fall into the novice category when it comes to dating. Honestly it scares me more than speaking in front of a crowd or being in a swimsuit in public. It turns out that there are rules that I'm not familiar with and I have to say I don't really care for. What are those rules? Beats me and that's why I don't like them.

While I am honest and open, because I don't want to waste time with lies, I remain emotionally guarded. I am will fall for someone who is willing to catch me, I'm not going to jump off that cliff for any pretty face. The landing will be a real bummer if I make a wrong judgement.

From the title of this post I would suppose that you were expecting some fun story about a date that went horribly wrong, but I have honestly care for all the guys that I have dated. That doesn't mean that I loved them. Far from it, but I wish no one ill will and I can't get mad that I wasn't "The One." Quite the opposite, I am thankful that I had the chance to get to know them and they helped me learn about myself whether they knew it or not.

While there are scary parts, I have also experienced the butterflies in my tummy when kissing someone new for the first time. There have been more butterflies with some than others, but there is always that excitement of something new and unknown. It's a new adventure and you don't know how it's going to end. The rush of endorphins and racing of your mind and pulse push you forward.

But caution again rears it's face and I have not found that I will utter those three little words until I am certain that it is a forever feeling and not fleeting hormones. I am still enthralled with the idea that some day in the not too distant future,I hope,I will say those words and mean them down to the last sliver of my being. I hope the person that I feel that way about will understand the gravity of that simple phrase when it comes from me.

Of coarse if none of that works out I always have the dogs. I freely say I love you to them daily, and when they look at me I know that they love me back unconditionally. Who can ask for more?